A few weeks ago, I was going down one of those infamous YouTube rabbit holes, in desperate search of some inspiration. I had a little momentum going with my music mid-2023, but then my baby brother died, and well…that shit took me out of the game. So, whilst on my quest for a sign from the creativity gods, desperately hoping for that bright lightbulb to appear over my head, I stumbled upon this interesting interview featuring the late great Mamba himself. In the interview, he talked about what the number 24 meant to him, and why he chose to dawn that number over his classic number 8.
For him, it symbolized a new era in his life and career. A new journey to embark on, evolving to a higher level of self. The words that stuck out to me the most in the interview were “ A mountain we had to overcome.” I must have replayed that part at least 20 times. Not only did it deeply resonate with me, but it also provoked some serious inner exploration.
You see, I have this tendency to focus heavily on the milestones I haven't reached, rather than taking a moment to appreciate the ground I've already covered. Hearing those words made me think about all of my internal conflicts that I had neglected to fully process. I thought about the beautiful connections that I have made over the years. I thought about the people I love and the friendships that I have been blessed to have. I thought about my girl preaching to me about being present, giving myself grace, and trusting the process. I could even hear my therapist’s voice echoing in my head with a deep warm-hearted tone saying, “And remember, be kind to yourself, De'Vaun”.
Every now and then, I need to remind myself that No matter how difficult the journey is, there are always small victories along the way. No matter how hard I am on myself, or how much bullshit life throws my way….. I still get shit done.
With that said, what better way to start the year than by acknowledging these things, and making a declaration to celebrate all of my wins and to never sulk too long over losses. 24 and beyond, I will be manifesting the most beautiful life I could ever possibly imagine. When it’s all said and done, everything will have been worth the struggle.